Happy Birthday!

Hey you, someone who once happened in my life!
Happy 20th birthday.
I hope everything goes well with your life, your study, your financial, your family, or (maybe) your new lover. :)
I'm on my way to accept the reality that I'm not with you anymore.
I prayed for you last night.
I really prayed.
I don't want you to become ordinary guy.
I know you are not.
I prayed for your safety, your happiness, your study, your career... for everything about you.

well, I'm mumbling.
I guess that's all.
Happy birthday, N. I really wish you nothing but the best.

i think i need to post more interesting-to-read stuffs on my blog.
i just realized that my blog is such a gloomy-self-centered blog.
*just wait for me on holiday!*

LOST

Wow, look at my last post. It was posted on April, and see? It's already mid June.
Well what you have to understand is for an amateur writer like me, who does not have talent in writing, i need extra effort and good mood to post something in my blog. Plus, my assignments and (NOW) my exams seem distracting me from writing.

Anyhow, there are MANY things I am supposed to write.
My midbreak getaway to Malaka with Arnold, Lia, and Dicky.
My sudden-crazy-plan weekend escape with Jessyca, Sylfester, and David.
Both getaways were SOOOOOOOO, um, what you called it, exciting!
Yeah, besides my never-ending-assignments-and-lab-reports. *sigh*
Don't think life could be pleasant these days.

But in this post, I don't plan to share my exciting getaways, but more about my thought, just now.
I was just waking up from my nap, when I read the timeline in Twitter.
One post from @jcqlie interested me.

"Just for once, I want someone to be afraid of losing me"

Those words pricked me. right away to my heart.
I ask myself, "Have they, who admit to be my friends, ever been afraid of losing me?"
It did not take even a minute for me to have the answer.
No, I don't think so.

Let's start from my boyfriend. *I really hope he does not have the time or interest to read my post*.
I don't think he is THAT afraid of losing me, like i am FREAKINGLY afraid of losing him.
He got all he's wanted. Good looking face, good fortune, good posture, good inner beauty. Who doesn't want him? It is super easy for him to find a girl, of course better than me. But I don't know why he still sticks with me after all this time. I don't think my existence is THAT matter for him.

And my friends.
To be honest, there are two best friends, few special friends, and many friends that I have.
First best friend. I don't need to mention her name, but she really is special for me. It's like I never have someone who understands me deeply like she does. I am like finding my other half soul. I will do everything to  "maintain" my superfriendship with her. But what's on the other side? I don't think that I am matter for her anymore. Well, I don't expect to be that close, like we used to be. At least, I still want to be the first person whom she tells for everything. But seems like she's found new exciting world, without me in it.
Second best friend. She's like my little sister. Superb, I can say. I can't thank her enough for accompanying me when I am down. or up. or whatever. She used to depend on me. Well, it is good to know that she's more independent, but I am afraid, I am not useful anymore for her. And being not useful is like a burden to me. Because it's like you are not needed by them, anymore.

My special friends.
I've got few special friends. and they come and go, without really think about my feeling.
I blame myself for it, but wait. I don't think that all are my faults. They've got new friends, started to be comfortable with them, and yes, you can tell the ending. They forget me.
These days, thank God, I have the opportunity to make new friends. I don't expect too much with these friendships I've just had. At the end, what's going to happen is, we leave each other. So yes, I don't put too much feelings on them, like I used to do to my old gank. You know how long it took to get over my feelings on my old bestfriends? a year. A freakin' full-of-efforts year.

Think that I am complicated?
Yes I am. I am THAT complicated when it comes to relationship.

Somehow, I wanna see who's crying on my funeral, if I am dying now.
My boyfriend? Will he go back to Indonesia, just to "send" me away?
My bestfriends? Will they shed a tear for me?
The only thing I am sure 100% is the lost-feeling that my daddy, mummy, and little brother feel.

The further I am thinking, the more I believe that I am the b*tch.
The b*tch who always asks for more.
who always carves more attention.
who always wants to be number one.
Because the thing is, we don't always get what we want, and we're not always number one.

I don't usually post something like this in my open-read-blog.
But for once, I just want to be honest with world.
You could be offended by reading this. but I'm sorry.

Strangers, again

This is one of the greatest, most amazing, most touching short videos i've ever watched.


just a quick review.
This video is about love relationship stages.
and i wanna review my relationship with him.


stage 1: the meeting
I met him, well, actually officially recognized him, on easter day (i think Maundy Thursday) 2009. 
dia masih cupu abis. kaya cinko. rambut coklat. kacau.
dan dulu yg ngenalin dia ke gw tuh si gibon.
dan gw sama sekali ga ada rasa apapun sama dia.
tapi emang sih. jujur, gw langsung nyambung aja sama dia.
sampe2 di gereja gw diomelin ma nenek2 gara2 ga bisa brenti ngobrol sama dia.. :)
what a memory.. :)
(oh no i couldn't find the photo! coz it was uploaded by gibon and her fb was deleted!!!! >.<)

yes, that was him with the white jacket. huahaahaha i can't stop laughing everytime i see his "look" on this photo!!!!! :D

stage 2: the chasing

secara gw sama dia start dari sahabat, jadi kita ga pernah sadar kapan kita mulai chasing satu sama lain. dan dia ga pernah ngaku kalo dia pdkt ma gw. huh. enak aja. 
pokoknya gw inget, kita mulai ada "apa2" tuh sekitar bulan oktober 2009... setelah gw putus dari pacar gw yg gila dan dia move on dari someone. and yes. that was the best part. soalnya gw belomfcukin' LDR dan semua masih smooth.. walaupun gw nebak2 terus sih sebenernya apa perasaan dia ke gw.

nah ini lagi jalan2 di genting jam 2 pagi. dia lagi sweet2nya nih. mau ngapain aja demi nyenengin gue. huheuehehehehehe... (btw, he was MUCH better than the previous pic right? ;P)

stage 3: honeymoon
well, honeymoon gw diiringi dengan tangisan. gw jadian pas ldr 3 bulan sama dia. terus pas balik malay juga cuma ketemu 2 minggu, abis itu dia pulang indo. DAN PARAHNYA STELAH ITU DIA CUMA STAY DI MALAY SELAMA 3 MINGGU BUAT PACKING. KARENA DIA BAKAL LANJUT DI NZ. fat the wack. ya berarti itungannya bukan honeymoon2 amat ya..paling2 gw merasa seneeeeeenggg banget pas kita ke malaka...

ah, jadi kangen.. :'(

stage 4: comforting zone

barusan aja gw tanya dia. "what stage are we now?" dan kita sepakat kita sedang ada di stage ini.

lagi "datar2" aja... hahaa..

ya gimana ga datar... uda ga ketemuan nyaris setaun.

beneran deh, kalo gw ga bener2 sayang sama dia, gw mgkn uda ga kuat.. :")

stage 5: tolerating

we once were in this stage. waktu itu kita masi berusaha stuck sama sumpah kita berdua, buat ga LDR. jadilah kita sering cekcok. dia mgkn masi belom terbiasa sama ldr. gw masi kebayang2 trauma gw sama cowok gw yg gila dulu. *sigh.

stage 6: downhill

ini yg paling ga enak. biasanya kita jadi ga peduli satu sama lain. gw makin sering ga enak ati. makin sering khawatir sama hal yg nggak2. makin sering nangis. 

stage 7: breakup

gue dua kali putus sama dia. dan jujur, pas gw putus sama dia. rasanya legaaaaa banget. ga ada lagi tu yg namanya khawatir2 ga jelas dan nangis2 tengah malem. tp leganya ga bertahan lama, seminggu kemudian, gw mulai kangen lagi sama dia. mulai nangis lg karena gw mesti maksa diri buat ga hubungin dia. dan gw bisa aja tiba2 teriak2 kesenengan kalo dia mulai sering nyari gw lagi..

stage 8: climbing up the hill

stage ini ga ada di short movie, tapi ada di hubungan gw ma dia. disinilah stage dimana kita mulai sadar (well, gw lah yang sadar. ga tau deh dia) kl kita ga bisa pisah. ga bisa kalo ga bareng2. dan dari stage ini, kita balik ke stage 2 dan mandek di stage 4....

:)

but im sure every couple has their own stages.

gotta go. :)

why revenge?

gue lagi mikir.
kenapa orang saling balas membalas.
misalnya si pacar cuek, elo bales nyuekin.
ato misalnya adek lo ngerusakin baju kesayangan lo, lo gantian ngerusakin tas dia.
kenapa harus gitu?

sambil main UNO, gue bolak balik mikirin jawaban buat pertanyaan gue.
gue tipe orang yang ga mau kalah.
gue ga suka diinjek2.
prinsip gue, "you can play with me, and so can I"
ga tau deh apa yang ngebuat gw bisa come out sama prinsip idup gw ini.

misalnya seseorang ngapain gw. apa kek.
terus gw berusaha banget cari cara biar bisa bales tu orang (well, i know that's definitely bad habit..)
gw istilahnya "ga mau kalah".
tapi terus gw mikir, misalnya pun gw udah bales tu orang, apa tu orang merasa gw bales? lebih parahnya lagi, apa orang itu sadar kalo gw sakit ati dan gw berniat bales tu org?

pasti orang-orang tanya, kenapa juga harus "bales dendam"?
soalnya gue merasa puas. walaupun orang itu juga mungkin ga sadar gue bales, tapi at least ada suatu kepuasan pribadi gue bisa ngelakuin hal yang sama kaya dia lakuin ke gue.

Everybody is imperfect kan?
buat siapapun yang baca blog ini, gue harap lo ga takut temenan ma gue.
gue ga sejahat itu kok.
gue temen yang baik. walaupun kadang2 nyebelin.
dan gue pacar yang baik juga. HAHAHAHA.

well, I'm mumbling.

long distance love

Creepy Christmas 2010

hey folks!

Christmas has passed and New Year is coming

! Yeey!

So much to tell, lately, especially about my creepy Christmas.

a bit late, i know! but better late than nothing, rite?

On December 24th, I went to Christmas Holy Mass in my Church, together with Paula, Stella, Sandra, Elvis, Indra, Nando, and Rezty. Well, not so much for a christmas eve, but enough. I kinda missed my family. this was my first christmas without them. But thank God, I got friends to celebrate my christmas.

And we celebrated christmas in one of most well known restaurant nearby, Murni SS2. Ley, Damian, and Pei Vern were coming later a

nd celebrating xmas with us.

*pei vern . ley . elvis . sandra . indra . me . paula . stella . damian*

(Pardon me, but i prefer telling this creepy christmas in Indonesian!)

Percaya nggak percaya, hari Natal yang sebener2nya malah lebih "aneh".

Setelah ngantuk-ngantuk ria, karena mesti nganterin Pei Vern balik ke Kelana Jaya, gue "nongkrong" di kamar Stella. Ngobrol ngalor ngidul. Terus dilanjutin nonton "Chasing Liberty" (you guys should watch this movie. it's good to kill the time!) dan Ley ended up tidur ngorok.

And yeah, we (me stella and ley) spent Christmas day, doing nothing, sleeping, leha-leha-ing, etc. Sampe akhirnya kita memutuskan, "Christmas woy! Masak cuma dirumah kongkow2 nggak jelas gini? Ayo jalan2 ke pyramid! Makan apa kek!"

Jadilah, kita bertiga menghabiskan waktu sekitar satu jam buat musyawarah "Kita mau makan dimana". Dari yang cupu macem Mingtien, sampe yang out-of-budget macem Tony Roma's. Dan akhirnya kita mencapai mufakat. Kita makan di BBQ Plaza.

Because that was christmas, we wore red dresses and hiasan Natal di kepala. Segalanya terlihat menyenangkan. tapi, lagi2, kita emang kadang gak bisa nolak sial. *sigh.

waktu ke pyramid, gue yang bawa mobil. (iyeeee NYETIR mobil!!!).

keren woyyy! hahaha.

*um nggak keren sih nyetir kancil. tapi buat gue udah keren abis! secara kalo di indo, tiap ada nyokap gw cuma boleh muter2 kompleks, saingan sama anak tetangga gw yang muter2 pake sepeda*

as i said before, everything went normal. paling macetnya itulah yang gak tahan. sama cari parkirnya, kupret, susye bener.

NAH. satu hal yang nggak gue sadari adalah masalah ngikutin selama gue di pyramid.

lanjut cerita dulu deh.

berhubung BBQ plaza terlalu rame dan perut gue udah keruyukan, jadilah kita makan di Manhattan Fish Market. berhubung kita ketemu Wahid, jadilah kita makan bareng dia. :)

(dia plan buat pergi ke Fraser Hill ato apalah itu malem itu juga. macem Cameroon Highlands, tapi edisi lebih spooky. urrggh gw tempted banget buat ikutan!! sayangnya crazy team uda ngacir semua. satu balik indo, satu cabut ke NZ, satu ngilang ke US. tinggal gue deh yang gila)

*me . wahid*

*dedek . stella . ley*

Abis makan, yah, girls' habit, being camwhores.

we camwhored in like, everywhere, as long as that place got christmass tree or christmas ornaments.

and the "sialness" began.

pas nyampe parkiran, ley yang gantian nyetir. soalnya buat keluar dari pyramid, kita mesti "naik" dan gw gak bisa kalo disuru "stengah kopling". jadi kemudi saya serahkan kepada Ibu Ley.

kuprutnyaaaaaa.. mobil nggak bisa dijalanin. nggak bisa distarter. oh my god.

gw pikir, "nggak mungkin lah. masak malem natal sempet2nya kena sial sih?"

tapi ternyata gw salah.

gw pikir, si ley uda ngantuk kali ya, jadi masukin kuncinya melenceng.

taunya nggak.

terus, gw udah takut aja. pas diliat2, kunci mobilnya agak bengkok. sumpah gw takut banget. jangan2 tu kunci mleyot gara-gara gw taro di tas. *tapi ya masak kunci bisa mleyot. kan nggak gw dudukin?*

ih sumpah lah gw takut banget.

ini masalahnya sama mobil cuy. gak cuma masalah sama saman.

si ley tiba2 ngomong, "apa jangan2 akinya abis yah. soalnya kamu tadi gak matiin lampu, nad!"

omigotdragon.

si oon ternyata lupa matiin lampu mobil!!!!! (maap ya temen2. nggak pernah bawa mobil malem. biasanya sore, sekitar jam 5 ato 6, bareng anak2 balita yang lagi belajar jalan).

jelas aja akinya abis!!!

haissh..

terus ada satu om2 sama dua anak cowoknya berniat nolong kita.

mungkin dia sadar lah, something wrong sama mobil kita. secara cewek2, keliatan panik, mondar mandir, dan gak pergi2 dari parkiran.

dia datengin kita dan bicara pake bahasa planet. (well, bukan bahasa planet sih. dia ngomong bahasa mandarin. tapi, berhubung gw buta bahasa mandarin, jadilah gw kategorikan tu om ngomong bahasa planet).

"wo ching cau bla bla bla wo ai ni bla bla bla ni hao ma bla bla bla wo bu cek fan blubub blubub wo bu ce taooo blukutuk blukutuk.."

oke. enough. gw cuma bisa bengong ngeliat tu om berusaha menjelaskan ke gw, sesuatu yang gak gw mengerti.

gw cuma bisa tanya, "eh, can you speak english?"

dengan gagah berani si om menjawab, "NO"

matek. skakmat.

untung anak cowoknya langsung maju dan ngomong, "yes, can we help you" atau apalah gue lupa.

jadilah kita jelasin keadaan kancil kita tersayang. dan disimpulkan, aki si kancil emang abis.

and you know?

kita menghabiskan malam natal kita dengan mendorong mobil kancil kita tersayang dengan harapan tu aki bisa nyala lagi.

*urgh, uda cakep2 pake dress ma hiasan rusa di kepala, harus dorong2 mobil kaya kenek truk! ngepet.*

sialnya, tu kancil tetep gak mau distarter.

omg.

plis lah. masak malem natal masih bisa kena sial sih?

setelah dorong berapa meter, si om menyerah. dia ngomong bahasa planet lagi. kira2 artinya "wah, gak bisa ni kalau cuma didorong. kalian coba panggil montir atau bagaimanalah. saya sudah capek dorong mobil ini. sekarang saya mau pulang. ciao!" *sotoy.

dan pulanglah si om beserta kedua anak lelakinya, meninggalkan empat perempuan cantik dan malang di parkiran basement sunway pyramid. *sigh.

kita udah pusing banget lah.

telpon elvis, eeh dia nggak ngasi saran berarti.

udah mo telpon si bang Jusuf (fyi, suami gibon + yang punya mobil kancil), tapi takut disuru bayar aneh2.

jujur deh, gue udah desperate banget. waktu itu udah jam 11 malem kalo nggak salah dan kita masih nggak tau mesti ngapain.

akhirnya, stella mengeluarkan ide cemerlang. telpon Damian. (baca: ngerepotin Damian).

entah gimana ceritanya, akhirnya Damian ma kokonya, Koko Arief, dateng jauh2 dari Damansara ke Sunway Pyramid cuma buat nolongin kita. Haish. maap yah udah ngerepotin...

padahal gw rasa si Damian lagi spent quality time sama Ko Arief dan neneknya. Yaaa secara malem natal gitu. tapi dengan biadabnya, kita suru dia malem2 ke pyramid cuma buat bantuin kita.. :(

Lagi-lagi, selama nungguin Damian, kita berubah jadi camwhores lagi (ckck, emang dasar cewek =.="). Here are some photos!

*nape lo om, seneng liat 4 cewek cantik kena sial? :P*

Kedatangan Damian dan kokonya seakan membawa berkah di tengah malam bolong.

sumpah deh.

nggak ada mereka, nginep kali gue di pyramid.

Dia dateng sambil bawa air aki. terus gak tau deh, ko arief ngotak ngatik mesin bagian depan.

Terus ada satpam patroli tiba2 dateng, bantuin kita. masangan jumper ato apalah itu, buat nyetrum akinya.

dan begitu kancil gila bisa distarter, rasanya maaaakkk GILA LEGA ABIS.

bener2 lega. bisa ambil napas. bisa kentut dengan sempurna.

fiuh.

Mesin mobil kancil gak boleh dimatiin dulu. Jadilah kita keliling2 sunway dengan perasaan lega.

sampe sempet2nya muterin daerah mentari court cuma buat ngeliatin bencong. HAHAHA.

*emang Natal yang aneh.

ketemu bencong lucu2 deh. ada yang lagi nawar. ada yang lagi duduk.

macem2. tapi cukup ngebuat kita seneng lagi malem itu.

sempet juga mau mampir ke daerah Tiara buat liat rumah2 bagus (hey this reminded me of someone who used to live here before. :D ) tapi gagal soalnya gak boleh masuk. gue mesti boong2 sama satpamnya lagi, biar gak diusir secara tidak senonoh. haha...

yaahhh, Natal aneh. Creepy Christmas.

Tapi seenggaknya, ada cerita lah yang bikin gw tersenyum tiap inget my Christmas 2010.

HAPPY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR people!

have a blessed.

acknowledgement:

Om-om dan 2 anaknya.

Damian.

Koko Arief.

*liat deh bekas templokan tangan2-entah-siapa-yang-mendorong-kancil-gila.

layer of me

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.

Name: Maria Eleonora Nadya Karina
Birth Date: November 26
Current Location: Bandar Sunway, Selangor, Malaysia
Hair Color: Black
Righty/Lefty: Righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: to be left out, to be alone, altitude
Your dream of the perfect date: 3-days-trip-to-Redang-Island with him.
Goals you’d like to achieve: to be happy

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it?
Your best physical feature: hair? legs? arm?
Your bed time: around 12 - 1 am
Your most missed memory: my 2009

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonalds (no good choice, apparently)
Single or Group Dates: group dates
Adidas or Nike: neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: both are good

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: no
Drink: no
Take showers: seriously? -_- of course.
Have a crush: not a crush, but ex. -.-
Like school: TOTALLY.
Believe in yourself: no
Believe what goes around comes around: yes
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes
Think you’re a health freak: god no

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: yesterday
Been on stage: no
Eaten sushi: of course yes
Been hurt: absolutely yes
Dyed your hair: no

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: nope
Kissed the same sex: yeah, cheeks and lips. (NO I'M NOT LESBIAN YOU PERV!)
Got beaten up: yes
Changed who you were to fit in: kinda

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: 27?
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 2

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: pretty eyes, any color
Hair colour: black
Short or long hair: OF COURSE SHORT.
Fat or fit: fit
Looks or personality: both
Fun or serious: both

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: this
1 HOUR AGO: blackberry-ing
1 WEEK AGO: forgot dudeee..
1 YEAR AGO: breathing

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I feel: awful
I hate: FUCKIN' LDR
I hide: my feelings
I need: to get out from this godammit stupid feeling
I love: you

LAYER 12: FAVORITES.
Singer: David Archuletta
Colour: natural
Food: lechy
Things to do: hanging out, whatsapp-ing, travelling, watching movies,... studying. *sigh

LAYER 13: RANDOM.
How long have you known your best friend?: around 3 years
When’s the last time you kissed someone?: kissed, like snogging? July 17th, 2010.
What are you excited for?: nothing
Do you have any saved texts on your phone?: definitely yes

the crazy me is back!

actually, not completely.

but i guess i should thank HIM for giving me another chance to "live up" the real me.

i am crazy. i love challenge. i don't like staying home all day. i don't like being alone.

and here i am, the crazy me is back.

yesterday, i spent my morning doing nothing.

facebooking, tweeting, cooking (well, that could not be counted as cooking, since i spoiled my veggie *sigh), and watching old movies.

then, my friends asked me heading to MidValley.

and there we went, to one of my favorite mall in Kuala Lumpur, MidValley.

I felt the smell of Christmas there!

They really worked hard on decorating the main hall!

and see this picture below, me and my lovely super big micky:

urgh too bad i don't have dslr! the decoration was damn awesome!

We didn't spend too much time in MidValley, since we needed to catch Christmas Drama in Ley's church.

and you know what?

I wasn't regret for coming to that drama! It was AWESOME!!!!!!

This drama raised up my christmas spirit, which was a bit extinguished recently.

Good Job City Harvest! :)

and the trip continued to KTZ in ss2.

i was heading there with Damian's car.

the food was.. so-so. not that special. and it exacerbated my sore throat.

here it is, the famous honey dew loh.

and I was home at 12.30.

see, you see how the crazy me is back (pathetic, aren't I?)

well, don't compare to what I was back when I was surrounded by crazy friends, because it is all different now.

but, thanks God for letting me smile and feel the happiness & craziness once more.

*and besides, He gave another little surprise at night!!! :)

you know who you are

sincerely..

i love you, because you love me the way i am

i love you, because you will always say, "okay, you win"

i love you, because you always try making me happy and smile

i love you, because you're so patient

i love you, because you're brave

i love you, because you have the courage to defend me

i love you, because you don't want me to look bad in front of others

i love you, because you always trust me though i lied to you

i love you, because you always forgive me

i love you, because you know what to do to make me smile

i love you, because even though you know everything's impossible, you make it as if it's possible

i love you, because i enjoy every single second i'm with you

i love you, because you are willing to sacrifice your life for me

i love you, because i'm created to

i love you, because you never stop loving me

i love you, when you are being talkative

i love you, when you smile

i love you, when you hug me

i love you, when you hold my hand

i love you, when you say everything's gonna be alright

i love you, when you say, "you look good on that dress!"

i love you, when I see your caller ID appears on my skype, msn, or phone

i love you, when you want me to stay with you

i love you, when you tell me you need me beside you

i love you, when you tell me you can't live without me

i love you, when you say, "I LOVE YOU"

i love your eyes

i love your smile

i love your hair

i love your voice

i love your surprises

i love your scent

i love your style

i love your laugh

i love your craziness

i love your way to express your feeling

i love the way you always want everything to be perfect for me

i love your romance

i love the way you speak

i love the way you look into my eyes

i love the way you hug me

i love the way you love me

i love the way you cook

i love the way i can't let you go

i love the way you say, "but i can't swim"

i love the way you drive

i love the way you're attracted to me

i love the way you can't stop eating kebab

i love everything about you

he loves white

he loves caramel macchiato

he loves “udang goreng telur asin”

he loves crocs

he loves travelling

he loves photography and design and yes, he is an unbelievably amazing photographer

he loves 7

he loves ME

but,

all my loves have to be put on hold, until… I don’t know when.

we're meant to be, but not now.

I LOVE YOU.

my love

millions of love,

nadyakarina

ps: this post is taken from Michelle Hendra's blog with slight adjustment. Credit goes to this sophisticated girl.