layer of me

LAYER 1: ON THE OUTSIDE.

Name: Maria Eleonora Nadya Karina
Birth Date: November 26
Current Location: Bandar Sunway, Selangor, Malaysia
Hair Color: Black
Righty/Lefty: Righty

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE.
Your fear: to be left out, to be alone, altitude
Your dream of the perfect date: 3-days-trip-to-Redang-Island with him.
Goals you’d like to achieve: to be happy

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your thoughts first waking up: what time is it?
Your best physical feature: hair? legs? arm?
Your bed time: around 12 - 1 am
Your most missed memory: my 2009

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonalds (no good choice, apparently)
Single or Group Dates: group dates
Adidas or Nike: neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: both are good

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: no
Drink: no
Take showers: seriously? -_- of course.
Have a crush: not a crush, but ex. -.-
Like school: TOTALLY.
Believe in yourself: no
Believe what goes around comes around: yes
Believe everything happens for a reason: yes
Think you’re a health freak: god no

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: yesterday
Been on stage: no
Eaten sushi: of course yes
Been hurt: absolutely yes
Dyed your hair: no

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: nope
Kissed the same sex: yeah, cheeks and lips. (NO I'M NOT LESBIAN YOU PERV!)
Got beaten up: yes
Changed who you were to fit in: kinda

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: 27?
Number of kids you’re planning on having: 2

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye colour: pretty eyes, any color
Hair colour: black
Short or long hair: OF COURSE SHORT.
Fat or fit: fit
Looks or personality: both
Fun or serious: both

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: this
1 HOUR AGO: blackberry-ing
1 WEEK AGO: forgot dudeee..
1 YEAR AGO: breathing

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I feel: awful
I hate: FUCKIN' LDR
I hide: my feelings
I need: to get out from this godammit stupid feeling
I love: you

LAYER 12: FAVORITES.
Singer: David Archuletta
Colour: natural
Food: lechy
Things to do: hanging out, whatsapp-ing, travelling, watching movies,... studying. *sigh

LAYER 13: RANDOM.
How long have you known your best friend?: around 3 years
When’s the last time you kissed someone?: kissed, like snogging? July 17th, 2010.
What are you excited for?: nothing
Do you have any saved texts on your phone?: definitely yes

the crazy me is back!

actually, not completely.

but i guess i should thank HIM for giving me another chance to "live up" the real me.

i am crazy. i love challenge. i don't like staying home all day. i don't like being alone.

and here i am, the crazy me is back.

yesterday, i spent my morning doing nothing.

facebooking, tweeting, cooking (well, that could not be counted as cooking, since i spoiled my veggie *sigh), and watching old movies.

then, my friends asked me heading to MidValley.

and there we went, to one of my favorite mall in Kuala Lumpur, MidValley.

I felt the smell of Christmas there!

They really worked hard on decorating the main hall!

and see this picture below, me and my lovely super big micky:

urgh too bad i don't have dslr! the decoration was damn awesome!

We didn't spend too much time in MidValley, since we needed to catch Christmas Drama in Ley's church.

and you know what?

I wasn't regret for coming to that drama! It was AWESOME!!!!!!

This drama raised up my christmas spirit, which was a bit extinguished recently.

Good Job City Harvest! :)

and the trip continued to KTZ in ss2.

i was heading there with Damian's car.

the food was.. so-so. not that special. and it exacerbated my sore throat.

here it is, the famous honey dew loh.

and I was home at 12.30.

see, you see how the crazy me is back (pathetic, aren't I?)

well, don't compare to what I was back when I was surrounded by crazy friends, because it is all different now.

but, thanks God for letting me smile and feel the happiness & craziness once more.

*and besides, He gave another little surprise at night!!! :)

you know who you are

sincerely..

i love you, because you love me the way i am

i love you, because you will always say, "okay, you win"

i love you, because you always try making me happy and smile

i love you, because you're so patient

i love you, because you're brave

i love you, because you have the courage to defend me

i love you, because you don't want me to look bad in front of others

i love you, because you always trust me though i lied to you

i love you, because you always forgive me

i love you, because you know what to do to make me smile

i love you, because even though you know everything's impossible, you make it as if it's possible

i love you, because i enjoy every single second i'm with you

i love you, because you are willing to sacrifice your life for me

i love you, because i'm created to

i love you, because you never stop loving me

i love you, when you are being talkative

i love you, when you smile

i love you, when you hug me

i love you, when you hold my hand

i love you, when you say everything's gonna be alright

i love you, when you say, "you look good on that dress!"

i love you, when I see your caller ID appears on my skype, msn, or phone

i love you, when you want me to stay with you

i love you, when you tell me you need me beside you

i love you, when you tell me you can't live without me

i love you, when you say, "I LOVE YOU"

i love your eyes

i love your smile

i love your hair

i love your voice

i love your surprises

i love your scent

i love your style

i love your laugh

i love your craziness

i love your way to express your feeling

i love the way you always want everything to be perfect for me

i love your romance

i love the way you speak

i love the way you look into my eyes

i love the way you hug me

i love the way you love me

i love the way you cook

i love the way i can't let you go

i love the way you say, "but i can't swim"

i love the way you drive

i love the way you're attracted to me

i love the way you can't stop eating kebab

i love everything about you

he loves white

he loves caramel macchiato

he loves “udang goreng telur asin”

he loves crocs

he loves travelling

he loves photography and design and yes, he is an unbelievably amazing photographer

he loves 7

he loves ME

but,

all my loves have to be put on hold, until… I don’t know when.

we're meant to be, but not now.

I LOVE YOU.

my love

millions of love,

nadyakarina

ps: this post is taken from Michelle Hendra's blog with slight adjustment. Credit goes to this sophisticated girl.

love this blog!

oh how i thank to Michelle Hendra's blog coz it really repairs my bad mood!

okay, firstly, let me introduce this amazing blog.

it's kinda fashion blog, created by Michelle Hendra.

I am a secret big fan of her, anyway.

I really love the way she wears the outfits.

and the way she captures and edits the pictures.

and the way she chooses the words.

and the way she writes.

and everything!

REALLY. you guys should sneak a peak into her sophisticated blog.

and I am completely inspired by this girl.

Those outfits-matching can be such an inspiration.

of course I do know my limit.

I won't buy such things like she does. They are too much for an average girl like me. :p

Besides, I am not that into fashion stuffs and my father won't be sponsoring my shopping list (unless I get straight A's).

Thus, I need to figure out generic stuffs. (hey ManggaDua, wait for me!)

Other than the fashion thingy, I am so mesmerized by the photographs.

See the editing, the colours, the filters, the contrast, etc etc?

Too bad my internet connection is damn slow at the moment. I wanna post some of her pics, but I couldn't even open the blog. urgh.

and I love her body!!!!!

*secret: i am gonna try harder to lose some weight. 3 more kgs! c'mon!

okay, enough stalking this blog.

time to sleep. I almost contravene my own "oath", to sleep before 1 am. but it's now 12.58 am.

gotta go! :)

back to malaysia

hey fellas.

here i am, back to my not-so-called-home, malaysia.

you know what it felt to be me, today?

it was like, for the first time, stepping on Malaysia.

I flew with Garuda Indonesia, therefore I landed on KLIA, not LCCT (I used to land here, if I use AirAsia).

and to be honest, I miss him.

It was still crystal clear when he picked me up at KLIA, six months ago.

Back then, I walked as fast as I can. I still remember how my heart beat up waiting for his calls (since my number could not be used anymore). I still remember how I was stupid, waiting on wrong line when I claimed on my baggage. I still remember how he lied he was still on his way to airport. I still remember how he hugged me from my back (I didn't see him). I still remember how he held my hand when we were searching for our car. I still remember what happened, exactly.

But today, I was alone. together with those TKIs.

I was totally alone. I knew no one.

I was (and am) scared.

I was scared I was gonna remember you, again.

I was successful forgetting my feelings back in hometown.

but what happened? I remember you. :(

hey, you succeed moving on! you can do it here! :)

and today was not-so-good-day.

gue lupa beli majalah buat bacaan di malay.

jadilah gue beli di bandara.

ternyata harga majalahnya lebih mahal 2x lipat!

dasar konde!

Isn't it pathetic?

i accidentally got this from my Facebook.

Well, i barely open my FB account because I am just... scared.

Maybe I am scared because I'm not ready to get out my comfort zone.

After two days without FB (it is rare case, dear. because I AM a facebooker), finally I am online, again.

At first, I didn't want to open it, but I was curious.

and there you go. I spotted it in my Home.

and suddenly, all the walls that I have built break down.

suddenly, i feel i am pathetic.

We even haven't said "Happy 1st Anniversary, Sayang..."

But in a matter of fact, it's done.

No matter how hard I tried, it's done.

I don't want to, but I have to move on.

As I said, no matter how hard you work it out, LDR won't EVER work.

trust me. I underwent twice and NOTHING worked.

it pisses me off, but what can I do?

and the next question is when am i going to change my relationship status?

decision!

HELL YEAH.
i just made one of the biggest decision in my life.
well, this decision should have been taken months ago but i just did not have courage to do that, anyway.
*besides, actually i was forced to take this decision.

so far, it went well.
no great wound occurred.
no complication either.
it went well.
but i don't know what's gonna happen once i'll be back to Malaysia.
is the wound really disappeared.
or is it just closed temporarily by a bandage?
i hope there's no severe wound anyway.
i am sick of this.
i wanna live normally!
i don't wanna live with this illness!

well, my family helps me so much to go through this illness.
my bestfriends too.
they ARE freakishly amazing!
who predicts i could be healed this fast?
even, nobody realizes it, don't they?
nobody realizes coz i hide it well.
hahaha. because i am a good actress.
i should win an award. really. :)
but one person i should give thanks the most is my GOD.
Jesus is the one who lifts up my burdens, covers my wound, and heals my illness!

i really wanna live normally, like the others do.
because i feel like i'm crap. i'm a little weak girl who can do nothing.
:(

holiday?

One and half week has been passed.

I've been in holiday and this is why sometimes I hate holidays.

Well, I don't say I love school anyway.

tapi gue lebih suka sibuk dari pada bengong, nggak ada kerjaan kaya gini.

this is killing me.

karena gue gak ada kerjaan dan tidak ada yang gue pikirin, jadilah gue selalu memikirkan hal-hal yang tidak perlu dipikirkan.

and i hate this.

gue jadi nggak tenang.

gue jadi nggak bisa menikmat liburan.

OMG!!!!!

#abaikan saja post ini.

This is my story

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GUE EMANG NGGAK PERNAH BISA MOVE ON DARI ELO SEMUA!!

KENAPA EMANGNYA KALO GUE GAK BISA MOVE ON?

GUE FREAK?

IYAAAA???????????